That's all I really have to say.

Hope you all have a Merry Christmas.

I just got my book that I had ordered from AND ITS AMAZINGNESS IN A SOFT PAPER-Y SHELL!!! I freaking love it.


My Christmas came early.

Stole this from so yeah...

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:

1: You don't know anything about them, stop acting like you do. You're going to get hurt.
2. I'm so sick of your shit. I can't take it anymore.
3. I miss you so much.
4. I need you now more than ever, but you've forgotten about me...
5. I wish you were here with me.
6. I love you, but you're a total bitch.
7. I'm so worried about you...
8. What did I ever do to you? Why do you always act like being with me is a punishment? Why do you hate me?
9. It feels like you don't even care anymore...
10. You're a serious weirdo, but it just makes you more lovable. XD

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

1. Make me laugh
2. Accept me
3. Notice things that others don't/won't.
4. Teach me things you think are trivial.
5. Hug me randomly.
6. Don't leave me alone when I tell you I need to be left alone
7. Hold my hand in public
8. Stand up for me.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. "I wanna get out of here..."
2. "Whats the point in doing this anymore?"
3. "I don't even care anymore..."
4. "I hate this."
5. "Why don't you ever notice when I'm upset? Do you even care?"
6. "OMG just leave me alone already!"
7. "I don't feel like I belong..."

FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment: (Omg that is NOT enough.)

1. Raybear
2. Kelly
3. Kimpie
4. Erica
5. Felicia

FIVE songs that you listen to often lately:

1. Hot Mess by Cobra Starship
2. Fireflies by Owl City
3. Gives You Hell by All American Rejects
4. Just Like You by Three Days Grace
5. Scream by Tokio Hotel

if ya wanna do it, consider yourself tagged....

I've come to realize, people saying 'Happy Holidays' is a waste of oxygen. Most people are so stressed around this time of year, that hardly anyone is Happy except on the actual day of the Holiday and sometimes not even then. Realizing this got me thinking, I mean, in the old days it wasn't ever this stressful, at least, not the things that you read about from back then. Have people really commercialized the holidays so much that no one enjoys them anymore? Other than the little kids I mean.

I don't know about anyone elses home life or family around this time of year, but I know mine is always stressed. My mom is always bitching about one thing or another, my sister the same thing. Hell, even I bitch about everything I have to do with the decorations around the house. Just today I complained about having to climb on the roof to hang the lights. (ANYONE who knows me, knows that that is NOT a safe job for my clumsy ass.) Plus, my family is always scrambling over each other to find someones list or hide another persons gift, or to shut someone up so they don't let that person hear about a gift for this person or something of that sort. Everyone in my family always states that this is their favorite time of year. Then they always bitch about how stressed out they are. WHY WOULD YOUR FAVORITE TIME OF YEAR BE THE TIME YOU'RE THE MOST STRESSED OUT? I just don't get it.

People are also talking about 'oh the music around this time of year is so beautiful!' It's just music. I mean, yeah, the words are made specifically for Christmas and stuff, but the music is the same kind of music you can hear all year long. To tell ya the truth, I hardly ever listen to Christmas music at this time. I mean, when it's closer to Christmas, like the 20th or so, yeah I listen to it because it's blaring through my house from every room. Otherwise, the songs pouring out of my speakers are ones that keep my hope and faith afloat. Ones that keep the tears at bay and cover that big-ass black hole with cardboard so I don't fall into it. Ones that bring up memories of them, but only the good ones. Ones that make me feel as if they're still here somehow.

Ugh. Sorry I went on a rant. I just really hate this time of year. I'll stop now before I start foaming at the mouth.

Happy Thanksgiving!!